Was it really what I thought it was?
How do I make it more than it is?
Can it be more than it is?
It is what it is or is it?
Tonight finds me in a wandering, pondering arena. I have this situation in which I thought that something was becoming more than what I thought it was, but just as quickly as it started to change, it reverted back to what it was in the beginning. Confusing? Yes. So where does it go from here. I've said many prayers over this and promised God that I would let go and let him do what he will with it....but what if I don't like his outcome? Is it really that easy to just let it go? I hope so! I didn't go looking for it, but was very happy it was here and now it is probably gone and I want it back...I waited patiently for it to arrive and when I thought it was here I was happy and looking forward to the change that it may bring...counting my chickens before they hatch...probably...but is that a bad thing? In this case, it appears so. I set myself up for disappointment. Let my expectations get ahead of me. So how do I turn this around? I don't know that I can...it's not within my power to control the outcome...as much as I would like to, I just can't because it would require me to control something that is out of my control...wow, that's a mouthful!
So do I say "It is what it is" and just move forward? Probably...but it's going to be hard not to look back and wish it were different. I usually think of things in the positive, but this is proving to be difficult. What I want to do is reminisce about the joy and laughter it brought to me for the short time it was here. It's hard not to look at the picture and wish that things were different....
How do I make it more than it is?
Can it be more than it is?
It is what it is or is it?
Tonight finds me in a wandering, pondering arena. I have this situation in which I thought that something was becoming more than what I thought it was, but just as quickly as it started to change, it reverted back to what it was in the beginning. Confusing? Yes. So where does it go from here. I've said many prayers over this and promised God that I would let go and let him do what he will with it....but what if I don't like his outcome? Is it really that easy to just let it go? I hope so! I didn't go looking for it, but was very happy it was here and now it is probably gone and I want it back...I waited patiently for it to arrive and when I thought it was here I was happy and looking forward to the change that it may bring...counting my chickens before they hatch...probably...but is that a bad thing? In this case, it appears so. I set myself up for disappointment. Let my expectations get ahead of me. So how do I turn this around? I don't know that I can...it's not within my power to control the outcome...as much as I would like to, I just can't because it would require me to control something that is out of my control...wow, that's a mouthful!
So do I say "It is what it is" and just move forward? Probably...but it's going to be hard not to look back and wish it were different. I usually think of things in the positive, but this is proving to be difficult. What I want to do is reminisce about the joy and laughter it brought to me for the short time it was here. It's hard not to look at the picture and wish that things were different....
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